UNFILTERED

 Its weird how i feel free to write what i want on my blog page but when it comes to talk to someone about something or address things that really need to be addressed, the ocean of words in my head cease to exist. its maybe because i am aware that no one would ever be reading my thoughts here as compared to the words spoken which is left for everyone to hear and interpret (or maybe even misinterpret). being able to articulate your feelings in spoken words rather than written words is a talent, only a few possess, and i have immense respect for people who are capable of that. that kind of people, you can have a wonderful day today and days following today thinking that there is a girl typing up her complete and utter jealousy for you.

If only we made life less complicated 

 We think so much when we are an adult. We think about things we should think about, we think about things we shouldn't think about; we also think about what to think next. They were wrong when they said life is difficult when you are an adult. It's us who become difficult.

Do you ever feel like no one will ever choose you over someone else? like no matter how much you love someone, care for someone but at the end of the day they will find someone else or some other reason to not choose you. Its difficult to love without ever knowing what being loved feels like. You love without purpose, without reason. It does sound pure because you don't care if the person loves you back; you just love them without expecting anything in return but that doesn't take you anywhere. You are just stuck with everything blurred around you. You can neither move forward nor backward. Who would have thought that not being loved can be a loneliness you cannot get out of.

 Hey everyone,  this is my first time blogging. Although I've blogged my life in a bunch of different ways, this platform is kinda new to me. i do not really know what i am planning to do to how this is going to go but i am ready to take this leap anyways. this is not about me though. it is about the things that goes on inside my mind struggling to get out and make itself known. i hope you guys like it and let me know what you think Love, M